The Book Keeps Changes

Presented in chronological order of composition:

FIRST SONG (1965)

BY THE HUDSON (1966)

PEONA TO ENDYMION (1966)

AFTER RAIN (1967)

TWO WINTER DAWN SONGS (1967)

WORDS (1968)

SEED (1968)

AFTER BECKETT’S QUATRE POEMES (1968)

ALBA (1969)

PICTURE WINDOWS (1969)

CITRUS (1969)

TO J. (1970)

PRIMER after Alden Van Buskirk (1972)

UNDER THE INFLUENCE (1973)

WEATHER MODIFICATIONS (1973)

NASA LENSES (1973)

DISCONTINUOUS CONTINUITIES (1973)

FEEDING THE ANIMALS (1973)

FATIGUE OF DAWN: A MELANCHOLIC FOR LADY DAY (1974)

TO C. (1974)

TO SAINT ANNE MY LADY (1974)

JULES & JIM: AN EXCHANGE OF LETTERS (1974)

ILE-DE-LA-CITE (1974)

SHIVA NATARAJA (1974)

TEA (1974)

MARRAKESH AFTERNOON (1974)

CHET BAKER GETS LOST (1975)

ON MORNING SHEETS (1975)

POINT PINOS (1975)

POINT LOBOS (1975)

ALMIGHTY VOICE (1976)

WHILE SHE LIES STILL (1976)

CENTRAL CALIFORNIA COAST (1977)

LONG TWENTIETH CENTURY (1978)

STATE OF THE STATE THE (1983)

PRODIGAL SON (1986)

ON MY SON’S SECOND BIRTHDAY (1989)

PRAYER FOR MY DYING MOTHER (1998)

UROBORUS (2006)

CLEARING & REGROWTH: THE SISKIYOUS (2006)

CAMPSITE 24 THE PINNACLES (2011)

POINT BONITA (2013)

                ASH TREES (2018)

OLD MAN SAY-SO (2022)

LEAVES FALL (2022)

 

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FIRST SONG

it takes us into its sleep

a white moth falls

from an overhanging branch

and makes delicate circles

 

we also are falling and drowning

 

how shall we land

make what rings

 

I made this song of my dying

               1965

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BY THE HUDSON 

when

slow

emerge

from mist

two great blue herons

into mist

merge

slow

again

               1966

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PEONA TO ENDYMION

What strange restlessness

in your breast tonight

keeps you awake

possessing you

until you are possessed

and blind?

Toward what dream shadows

are you moving now?

In pursuit of whom or what

do you wander thus

while others sleep?

What strange visions have removed you from the rest

and when will you awake from this dream?

                                                                                             1966

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 TWO WINTER DAWN SONGS

I.

Clouds float

compose and decompose

in transient clusters

of concentrate matter

gray cirrus in blue sky

ceremonially

clouds float.

Snow settles down

dawn is long.

Where do those birds spend the night

snow frozen on their tails, see?

They loop and scissor white

I write this tale for the slate colored junco

who sit in twigs of stripped forsythia then shift

from nerve to nerve, do you see?

All sorts of junk fits in so you do see!

Mais, oui! Ye must be Francis of Assisi, si?

No no

just fool

feet play

sea snow

a drift.

II.

Crows fly out of east to west

their ragged wings drag night.

This belt of Earth turns from obscurity

pauses in chiaroscuro

rotates into light.

Playing winds

black crows scope

light upon a snowy branch

And fold in dark draped wings.

Serried

silent

clustered as snow

water flows down.

Pause winter dawn song.

See all flow.

                     1966

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AFTER RAIN

You were waiting

with your secrets

while I groped.

Why did I try

to make it rain with my words, stones

thrown at skies

they fell back.

You knew all the while

trusting in touch

when we spoke with our fingers

clouds broke.

                                                   1967

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WORDS 

black

green

seen

heard

quaking

aspen

black

bird

herd

angus

grass

                     1968

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SEED

Roots shall chew and skewer though soil

stalks spire and shoot through air

green sheathed husks be spun around

and earth rise up to sun.

                     1968

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AFTER BECKETT’S QUATRE POÈMES

PARIS

All this unseen walking

beyond the river lamps

the body a banner of raw edged nerve

the brain a dim lantern

five windows dark with soot

unseen unheard

through the blows of a charcoal wind

it hurts to walk like this

sliced by rain and estranged in another man’s land.

ZURICH

Incurious

the dead shingle

the dark lake

the give and take of waves

anonymous

the boats

the strings of lights

voiceless faceless

far from the living and the happy music.

                      1968

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ALBA

Fall of your hair

raining in the courtyard

the idea of parting

 

curtain of hair

scent

 

the dead are put in rows and call these streets Manhattan.

         1969

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PICTURE WINDOWS

Tonight

all things speak of themselves

quietly

Gauguin in Tahiti

Seurat in France

Nascita di Venere in Roma

her breasts

her

her white neck

now I am with ones

who stare at Moon

strong pull.

                                                                                              1969

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CITRUS

I am eating the grapefruit you gave me.

I peeled back the rind to get in.

I pulled at the pink flesh, so fresh,

the fat petals pushed back:

in the open stands up the red core’s shred, so delicate,

and the scent of the delicious citrus.

I am inside the gift

and the juices I am drinking

of the great fruit.

                     1969

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TO J. after Robert Kelly

Tips of white pine attenuate in water beads

and I imagine you standing in that light

your fingers playing that music

fascicles of pearl, fascicles of pearl.

Where we stood last night

the evening turned Hudson waters

to curtains of gold and tassels silver

copper beads strung westward

as light and river fabrics knit.

It smells like a summer night you said

sundown feathers of last daylight

golden across your reddened face

sun going down beyond the Catskills

blackbirds ribboning the darkening sky

and the night before us.

This morning at this window opening westward

the breeze turns the leaves’ white sides

and turns a will in me

to let the singularity of our circumstance unfold

the dignity of plants the stance

of trees the attitude

of living flowers,

Eros’ scattered seeds become these roots.

And do you think we are anything

if not his petals seen?

                     1970

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PRIMER after Alden Van Buskirk

He lays a head
by the radio

to dream by Debussy
the LAMI dream

the thermostat thwicks
a reminder

lampdesk
boneclock
marrowfed

words bleed black
on yellow paper

against the unbearable sangfroid
care.

                                                            1973

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UNDER THE INFLUENCE after Paul Blackburn

If I embarrassed your lady with my eyes

it was due to the placement of your hair

whole handfuls of arrogant blonde

tossed back and streaming past me

a city kite flying silver against the sun.

You needed no hand and were all fashion

as you led me though the passage

with your new train of fools

until I was the one permitted

to hold open the door

as you met my enchantés with désolées

and flew away.

                      1973

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WEATHER MODIFICATIONS

Even after sitars are let loose on Western ears

conquistadors of an architectured populace

program to determine how it should be wrapped

provided trained dogs fetch tossed sticks.

Somebody (they) is building the city this way (against nature)

while professors of commerce hawk word salad

teaching each to put a name on the orange

and jack up the price.

There will be units to wear this climate control

consumers adapting political deadlights

the mannequins are already on display.

Sometimes I feel like an orphan without dead rites for my parents;

at the electronic vendor’s window I am that child.

                      1973

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NASA LENSES

grind us to an ancient time

the Earth is round no doubts about

its blue green O

circling in on it

from the other side of clouds

we are in the aqua swirling now

                     1973

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DISCONTINUOUS CONTINUITIES after Éluard

I have to speak myself that

sea parents us this

is whatever you think of next

care to rise another degree up Mount Abstraction?

this is not a fit not a rapture not anything we can name

yet even you say it’s just the top of his head this

is not what I think of next

what is not artifice what

this body is swelling to tell the whole

to say what I don’t know fills a book

to sing when veins dance breaking silence

puts a sort of music to the ears

when all that is said is all I

do want to be awake continually I

do want to extend this thee into yet another

when dreams are not asleep when

all that I am flows over the edge of a single bowl now

that has passed into the world and passes through still

a sense of seasons to endure

where history decays into dawn

a sense of seasons to endear

profiling language as we go the poem

caught in the ear up the throat off the tongue

by way of hand out

to those separate seas

                      1973

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FEEDING THE ANIMALS

Kettle softly calling

completes peyotea night

a triskelion of cats at the tin plate

the fire needs attention repeat.

*

Silver dust flakes the herd’s heads

having at hay mechanically

I lay my knife in the stream of the real

the moon bleeds out the white meadow

this was to be the alchemical dawn song

but it’s going to be ring false

if we look for gold only.

*

The trembling pink-eyed rabbit doe

the rooster’s statue solitude

the eyelash of an angus calf.

*

Are these trees he wonders of green reflections

not knowing what

they are.

               1973

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FATIGUE OF DAWN: A MELANCHOLIC FOR LADY DAY

Kisswoons

roses

silk gauze

hearthink

oil voice

wrap me in a cloak of

a lifespan grieving

for all it will never know.

Time eats us

the fire licks itself to death

wears no face

whose eyes we can see through.

 

Lover I have yet to meet

forgive the adieu in our first kiss

I have gone out inside myself

the black stream bleeds.

                      1973

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TO C. after Robert Creeley

Love which is not mine

who can speak your names

the hours after you go away are candlelit

with nap-tranced verbal patternings

still your fingers sculpt me

into yet another spectrum of we

who will be starfish

at the bottom of anonymous

the hours after you go away remain

staring into darkness

along lines of the believing solo I.

*

That goddess rising in me

her ancient Cytherian song

the moment her foot touches land

Love’s flood begun again

I can see this moment

a wash of little histories out to sea

dance my heart dance out

my throat by way of hand dance out

the river that flows of its own accord.

*

This body yearning

reaches out inside its skin

to touch you across the night

though evening company keeps us apart

your presence here

brings new Love notes to the fore

if an afternoon’s pleasures could ever be told

I might shatter with words

of a whole never-able-to-be

now I simply wish

to kiss you with awareness

of a beauty all too passing

the milk spilt in the alleyway

after I left you bedside

will be enough to feed the birds of change forever.

*

Tonight

after you went away

I pissed the wall

glad to be rid of intensity

I headed downtown

looking for a jazz room to repair

but sidewalk suck fuck talk

drove me back to private streets

and your names came.

*

More tender distance still

that seeks to sing the good in evening meters

tonight address me Love

and steal away the blissless solitude

I willing let go

past all retreat.

*

O the most welcome one

you never even let your shoulders down

and left before the music was done

now I want to be alone

or so stoned ages rock me in their arms

no more the cricket thick white night

attending your arrival.

1973

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POINT PINOS

O ancient of sea lioness swim sleek

through deepening lavender shoals I

would tell you what happens

when the wind is so up gulls stop, caught in their flight

turn a wing and find themselves flung back

along the line, waves swell

reflecting abalone suns

across slick as a gray whale’s back, retreat

to sea smashed rocks a foot kicks off

mussels washed back off into

the back

off into the

sea.

It’s not going to take a lot of

take a lot of concept of

of concept of

unlearning right now.

Have you seen the pool in the rocks beyond sight?

Have you cried for gulls in stormy weather

when nothing but the winds’ echoes come to call?

when we are food savaged on sea rock

when we are salt the sea anemone sucks

there are waves and there are waves I

speak as one now

in the mystery of matter.

Tired rock faces whatever weathers.

                                                                     1973

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TO SAINT ANNE MY LADY

That dying dawn I heard cry out your mappemonde

and Christophoros paused midstream

sitting here lighting your candle

to enter nearer your heart

that you may color a way through black white shadows

calling for your lost one: A MON SEUL DESIR!

                      1974

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JULES & JIM: AN EXCHANGE OF LETTERS

From the Rhine chalet:

Mon ami,

I’ve tried to drink alone

from the quiet coffin full of words

which waits beside my private door.

 Aide-moi, aide-nous, viens ici!

From the Paris apartment:

Mein freund,

your wood desk’s words recall me to another misty train trip

as Gilberte’s body before dawn

but serves to remind me of that other ivory trot step.

The upturned sculpted eyes of her stony usage foretold all: j’arrive!

                       1974

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ILE-DE-LA-CITÉ

Space is general

the site specific

where the Seine parts off the Vert Galant.

What is this tip called?

Where the dead fathers

gather after the dead mothers

in everlasting longing for this place.

                      1974

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SHIVA NATARAJA

Shiva will be wheeling in a sun’s circle

as our curfewed Blue Danube waltz

is forever undone.

                      1974

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TEA after Paul Bowles

Cat’s black sheen curls

in a pool of light, its tail curves

in the penumbra, breathing

shadow pulsing

a circle of candlelight about self-consumed.

The night is fading in

the glass, the moon is silver

the sliver is in the is.

Point to anything go

white night like the sound of like

clock tick stars click out there is in here.

Have we been sitting here a very long time?

Daylight, no longer night

a crescent of white sugar dissolves

amber swished about the glass tossed out

scatters chips mirrors of broken light.

The sun’s rays refracted how

can about to be?

No one will ever know you

will never be known.

Let, get, forget.

The sky is blanching out

in morning’s crown of light.

                      1974

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MARRAKESH AFTERNOON

My own deprivations

are as severe

if more discreet

than that public man

who raves sun-blasted streets

a will to meet you

who can’t be met

that no amount of hash can dull

through the zebra shadowed souks

behind my invisible veil

in search of you

I pen the blind man’s cane across a white page

tapping for your light.

                           1975

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CHET BAKER GETS LOST

Tone pinpointing pain’s relief

from pain release plaisir

into their ears

croon this tune

too all too also all too

muting

seducing

confusing

reduced

blame it on my use blame it

on my broken tooths.

*

Seeking sun

or shade

weather depending

the white lizard

dead or alive

stone cold.

*

Spoils

spoiled

spilt

split.

                      1975

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ON MORNING SHEETS

The guitar music he put on

spins its disks out into the room

yet her divided will will not let her

read Love’s letter his body writes

she walks instead where rain blows yellow barley wet

beside him

in blue grey shadow

her sleep print is still impressed

beside the bed

the blood red rose

wears the worm’s scar

he lies down thin leaden lines along the tree’s receptive skin

what song the field sings to her

he cannot hear

only the output of autoerotic words

soothes his yearning flesh

he lies

down thin

leaden

lines

along the tree’s receptive skin.

                      1975

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POINT LOBOS

It’s a bright lit path

that leads through the trees

that lead to the rocks

that shift the colors of fire.

We have made it

off the military bases

past the art galleries and crisis centers

to this wonder: what other deer grazed here when?

Within the thick Amerindian

below the smoothed sloped hills

beyond the horse’s dream of beige

we have made it to this wonder:

that we are the voice of things

embedded in a world of things

before I was another.

                       1975

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ALMIGHTY VOICE (to be sung as an early American hymnal)

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Put him in a jail but he got out somehow.

 

100 to 1 were the odds that night.

100 to 1 were the odds that night.

100 to 1 were the odds that night.

Women and children came to watch the fight.

 

Almighty Voice went to hide around the bend.

Almighty Voice went to hide around the bend.

Almighty Voice went to hide around the bend.

Mounties moved in and that was the end.

 

By the morning light one Indian was dead.

By the morning light one Indian was dead.

By the morning light one Indian was dead.

Justice had been done the history books said.

 

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Almighty Voice killed a cow, killed a cow.

Put him in a grave but he gets out somehow.

                      1976

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WHILE SHE LIES STILL

Black swans cruise the neon waters flowing through her legs

seagulls circle the currents of her windy heart

and herons brush wings against her rib basket of bone.

His hands are mourning doves hovering at her neck 

his tongue a hummingbird sipping at her skin

his lips mockingbirds  ringing at either ear.

A magpie folds in white spotted wings, she wakes

surprised to find an iridescent tail

fanned out across her breast.

                            1976

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CENTRAL CALIFORNIA COAST

Across the arid coastal hills

black bulls range

and brown horses browse the plaid.

Where stones are stacked at the kine crossing

I have known the cold of Orion’s silver blade

and shivered for sleep amid the Seven Sisters of the Pleiades.

 

The moon is a mirror opening.

The sun is a window opening.

 

Praise the days that survive you.

                      1977

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LONG TWENTIETH CENTURY

When there wasn’t time

when at any second

between wars

the sound of sirens

shifts at the factory.

 

Long twentieth century

when the counselors told the rulers

let the people chew their tongues.

                1978

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STATE OF THE STATE THE

Rumors are

West Berkeley High will soon be closed down

its rainwater gutters brimming over

with trash to that effect

what remains

up against the wall art

portraying Atzlan prisoners

with visitations from Senorita of the Thorny Red Rose

encircled by Dancing Turtle

whose belly may be a spiral of rebirth

battered by this wind ripping off

whatever’s not locked down

the rock hit sheet metal turban vents turn

“JUAN RUIZ IS” what

the graffiti hasn’t finished

building the boarded up

dope down drink up

is down to you

kids gang banged by that wind.

                      1983

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PRODIGAL SON: THE DREAM

Estate in ruin

father a suicide

mother gone off half-mad.

Beside the fallen house

the path narrows to a pool.

 “The water from the earth

 goes down a long way.”

Reflecting clouds breeze by overhead.

“You have next to forgive them

for abandoning you

in life and in death.”

                      1986

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ON MY SON’S SECOND BIRTHDAY

We are forever one and one

and one by one we learn

to care for one another

once we’re gone.

The mother wound leaves the first scar

here’s a cure:

at the head of his bed

I’ll set a sprig of deep rich red

torn from the flowering plum

which burst that day of blood

our dead forefathers blossomed once again.

                     1989

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PRAYER FOR MY DYING MOTHER

Even as your fingers lose grip of the white blossom

a sign for all who see that

in the ditch outside

an old egret appears

to have lost strength enough to stalk

after its own stabbing eye.

Feathers soiled, it stands

stilling itself

to remind us of an old egret

reflecting upon the red mud ground.

Now you are in flight

whitening wings, trailing light

becoming the sky, becoming the air we breathe in

you transform yourself before us.

The bird leaves its body

and is purified

purifying us.

                      1998

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UROBOROS to Nancy Boffey 1925-1998

I can no longer carry you along

the whole must off now

and I go on without you, alone

yet you will beckon me back

to sing with you those old false notes

from our favorite book

how I would rescue you

bring us through to glory

and we would be together, forever at last

but no

looking back I see

my skin sloughed off

along the way.

                     2006

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CLEARING & REGROWTH: THE SISKIYOUS after Gary Snyder

This is the way I want to die, not afraid

of what big bear might be

around the bend

but brought by a quaking blossom down

to the forest floor, arrested

by a lily’s filaments

faintest green within its matte mauve globe

where one outsize black bee shakes and does not fly out.

Having hiked deep into this complexity of trees

recalling simple names and human uses

for this fern and that shrub

these seeds and those cones

and what of those pubescent horsetails insistent out of Whitman’s muck?

“The spirit is as real as dirt,” Muir said

or is said to have said

or perhaps it was said of him

who cares who now?

Binoculars

magnifying lens

eye glasses

set aside.

Alive

awake

aware

listening to air

riffles between ears and firs.

                    2006

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CAMPSITE 24 THE PINNACLES for Condor #43

listening to owls

listening

to us

*

at half its height

the ghost pine broken

stands still

*

what hand moves so that

set points shift

and whose

*

great horned owls sound off

ravens clack

flickers drum the day breaks with jays

*

flex your blue branched legs

flap your black tented wings

fly back out of here

into the whole

                      2011

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POINT BONITA: INSTRUCTIONS FOR MY SON

Stand one foot on diabase, the other

on sandstone straddling the fault line

between breathing waves harboring seals

the islands westward, eastward

closer in, the inland coves.

Stand then toss my ashes out, down

upon the rocks with a prayer, that’s

my final wish, asking birds seals sea what

remains what remains what remains

when winds are so up gulls stop

caught in their flight, flung back

upon the cliffs.

Ashes on the tongue

let these last words be written on the wing.

Your trail back

proceeding you

is what remains.

                  2013

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ASH TREES

Ankle deep in the litter of dead letters

too old for new tears

I hear their leaves

falling to the floor

perennial

as winds of winter

pruning deadwood

to the ground

yet

can I forget or forgive

the once despised

carry only the ones beloved

as long and as far

as I go on?

                 2018

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OLD MAN SAY-SO

[after reading S. Kessler’s Garage Elegies]

TOWN

I can’t deal with this self-checkout

shit’s all ads and damn ads and more damn ads

and round and round and around

the time you think maybe they’re done

they dare you to buy in or opt out—

but out or in of what?

This must be what they call the point of purchase

where you lose your grip on things

standing still. The signal is on to cross but

where’re the keys, where’s

the car parked, which

way’s home?

HOME

Why do I bother with papers when

they’ve got it all wrong

blaming the language

not their own misuses of it

and pisspoor imaginations?

But there you go again

turning on the news, wondering

is it just me whimpering

or is this it, the Big Bang

at the end of our story not the start of it?

Anyway, they say,

you can’t step into the same river twice so

I’ll let my eternal presence flow downstream

put my personal devices on deaf & dumb and

take a nap, kissing that noisy busy bright new world of theirs farewell.

Jan 2022

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LEAVES FALL

turn red

yellowing to brown

old love letters

too old for new tears

deadwood

littering the ground

never to green up again

2022

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